Without You

Without You
(“Rent”)


Without you
The ground thaws
The rain falls
The grass grows

Without you
The seeds root
The flowers bloom
The children play

The stars gleam
The poets dream
The eagles fly
Without you

The earth turns
The sun burns
But I die
Without you

Without you
The breeze warms
The girl smiles
The cloud moves
Without you

Without you
The tides change
The boys run
The oceans crash

The crowds roar
The days soar
The babies cry
Without you

The moon glows
The river flows
But I die
Without you

The world revives

Colors renew

But I know blue
Only blue
Lonely blue
Within me blue
Without you

Without you
The hand gropes
The ear hears
The pulse beats

Without you
The eyes gaze
The legs walk
The lungs breathe

The mind churns
The heart yearns
The tears dry
Without you

Life goes on
But I’m gone
Cause I die

Without you

Without you

Without you

Without you



You know life can be so mean sometimes. *smile* Like, when you think everything is okay. Some bad feeling has to come along. But one thing I realized last night was that I’m not going to give up on us.

Have you ever tried losing someone you loved so much? And thought that replacing him/her would be easy? Or did you ever feel the way Ne-Yo did when he wrote Irreplaceable? (Yep, he wrote it. Beyoncé sang it.)

Well, I tried losing someone for a while (or more than a while!), I swear, I don’t want to feel that again. I thought I’d be able to find someone else. Tsk, tsk, tsk. But I didn’t.
I didn’t sulk and mope in a corner for the whole time I was in “pain.” I moved on, a bit, I think, not exactly, but, you get the picture!
But no one was able to “replace” him. No one ever can. Ever.

Trust. Trust. Trust.

We have talked about that a lot.

Question: If someone special to you, betrayed your trust and made you seem like the fool, what would you do?

Then he comes back, willing to give up almost everything for you, what would you do?

Would you take him back? Or let go of everything you ever dreamt and hoped for?

What if, just what if he isn’t the right guy for you and in the “process” of all this, your unknowingly hurting the man you are destined to be with till death do you part?!

What if he’s the one for you, the one man you’re suppose to spend your whole life with, and you let go of him for somebody else?

Wait. Wait. Wait.

What if you wait for someone who you’re really not supposed to wait for?

What if you wait for someone who doesn’t even exist?

What if you wait your whole life, for someone who has no plans of coming?!
Man, that would suck!

Uh! Right now, I am so tired of thinking about what would happen in the future. I just want to live by each day and enjoy it in any way I can. Life’s too short to be fussing about all these questions, right?

Live the day like there’s no other day. No grudges. No regrets. No pain. No day but today. (Rent)

Take me or leave me

Take me or leave me


Sometimes, for some people, you just can’t stop loving a certain person, even though, maybe it isn’t right. I have a little something-something for those “couples” who’ve been insecure with each other, I guess. It’s about accepting that person for who he is. Maybe you could change him a bit but not change the whole him, and turning him into someone he’s not.

This is a song from Rent, one of my favorite musicals, which was made into a movie. So now, it’s one of my favorite movies too!

This song is about two girls in love with each other. Yep, that’s it. I think you got what I meant. They were always jealous of, I guess how much attention each of them would get. Attention from other women.

In this part of the movie (and musical) they were singing/screaming at each other about so much bad stuff. But in the end, they just end up together. As always. That’s love, you know! *laugh*

It’s all about the second chance baby!!!*grin*So.. I hope you guys like this song! It’s really cute!



Take Me or Leave Me
(“Rent”)

Every single day
I walk down the street
I hear people say,
“Baby’s so sweet”

Ever since puberty
Everybody stares at me
Boys, girls
I can’t help it baby

So be kind
And don’t lose your mind
Just remember that I’m your baby

Take me for what I am
Who I was meant to be
And if you give a damn
Take me baby or leave me
Take me baby or leave me

A tiger in a cage
Can never see the sun
This diva needs her stage
Baby, let’s have fun!

You are the one I choose
Folks’d kill to fill your shoes
You love the limelight too, baby

So be mine or don’t waste my time
Crying, “Honey bear, are you still my baby?”

Take me for what I am
Who I was meant to be
And if you give a damn
Take me baby or leave me

No way, can I be what I’m not
But hey, don’t you want your girl hot!?
Don’t fight, don’t lose your head
‘Cause every night, who’s in your bed?
Who’s in your bed, baby?

Kiss, Pookie.

It won’t work.
I look before I leap
I love margins and discipline
I make lists in my sleep
Baby, what’s my sin?

Never quit, I follow through
I hate mess, but I love you
What to do
With my impromptu, baby

So be wise
This girl satisfies
You’ve got a prize but don’t compromise
You’re one lucky baby
Take me for what I am

A control freak

Who I was meant to be

A snob, yet over attentive

And if you give a damn

A loveable droll geek

Take me baby or leave me

And anal retentive!

That’s it!

The straw that breaks my back

I quit

Unless you take it back

Women!

What is it about them?

Can’t live
With them
Or without them!

Take me for what I am
Who I was meant to be
And if you give a damn
Take me baby or leave me
Take me baby
Or leave me

Guess I’m leaving
I’m gone!

love love love..

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”

Corinthians 13:4-7


If only everyone believed in this, the world would be less chaotic. I could say that I have to work on the envy part. It’s just hard for me to avoid that fro what happened before. It’s like a slight trauma.

“it keeps no record of wrongs “

People don’t do this either. I learned to do this. We all have to move on some time. Right? We have to forget about the bad things that happened. But how can you do that when you still have a lot of questions in your head. Like. “What? Was I not good enough to be the only you loved?” or “What did I do wrong that made you find someone else?”
Those are some of those questions that I’ve been itching to ask. I love him with all my heart but is it really the same with him. He says that he was stupid to have done all those things but what could have been that real reason why. I don’t want to doubt him anymore. But it’s just hard not to go to that path, you know. *growl*
See, here I go again. I guess I haven’t mastered this “keeping no record of wrongs” thing. So, I’m sorry if I keep looking back at those old sucky days. *laugh*
This is the beginning of our new FRIENDHIP, right *laugh*? Or a new life with him? Oh wait, not yet. *grin*
It’s hard to be patient especially when you finally have that one thing you lost and worked hard for, for so long.
Oh my gosh! Seriously! I can’t imagine how my life would have been now. It’s just really so cool because I just can’t forget our first year days. With my two best friends and him! It’s so funny.*laugh*
I wonder how life is without love. I bet it would be so gloomy and boring. I don’t think I have ever lived my life without loving. I seriously love so much things. But when I love, I really love to the fullest. Maybe that’s why I always end up getting hurt and crying. *hmf*
So, I shouldn’t love anyone with all my heart?*scream*
No way, I don’t think I can do that. Oh! You know one thing I also don’t understand? It is that how some people can “love” people without really loving them. It’s as if they don’t care about what the other people feel. And it’s as if they think that others don’t have feelings but themselves. And when they look (or even hunt) for those people they say they love. It’s just really insane.*smile*

“I say to myself, ‘The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.’ The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to those who seek him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.”
Lamentations 3:24-26

Life just isn’t life without you.

Life just isn’t life without you.

Time flies by so fast. It seems like just yesterday I was so nervous to introduce myself in front of the class. Telling everyone what I like to do, what my interests are. The time I first saw him and thought that it was just a dream to ever get close to him.

Then the time came when we got to know each other and I’d get so thrilled by almost everything he’d say to me. Then after a while of all that, it was official that he was mine. The only thing that sucked at that time was that we had to hide everything we had shared together. And when finally they knew, it still didn’t make everything right. We had to fight for what we wanted. But at that time, I think I did most of the fighting. I thought it would really last no matter what. But I guess I was wrong .It didn’t. I told him that he needed to wait for me. Then I found out that he wasn’t as honest as I thought. At that time, moving on was the hardest thing for me to do. But I had to do that for my own good, even though it hurt. He’d moved on anyway. So I did as well. But there was always that place for him in my heart. It was just different without him. And I just can’t explain how it felt.

Almost everyone would tell me to let go because he wasn’t worth it. And they got me thinking that too.

Everyone thought I was fine. But I wasn’t! And only those who gave me the time of day knew that. I could be so thrilled with every guy who’d make me feel their love. But if everyone else just knew that deep inside my heart, the pieces weren’t patched up yet. I don’t regret anything that happened. But I guess if it could have been at least a little less painful, I’d want that.

But now? I just can’t believe that those are now memories, just things that happened in the past. Now, I know why it had to be so painful. And all the pain before is worth everything now. We got this far and I’m going to hold on tight to what we’ve worked for. I won’t allow anything to take my happiness away from me again.

One thing I always pray for though, is that I don’t have to go through all those crappy things again. It’s just all about trust now, is it?

Well now, I have nothing to hide anymore. We’re going to start this right this time, no more hiding. Hiding the truth didn’t do any good for either on of us. Besides love isn’t just sharing your life with each other but it’s most especially about honesty and trust.
Because without honesty and trust, love would be just a game. A game that would hurt hearts and change people in a way that shouldn’t be done. Love shouldn’t even be taken for granted. For me, it’s one of the greatest gifts God gave us. There is no life without love. And those who live without love, just aren’t living life at all.