Life just isn’t life without you.
Time flies by so fast. It seems like just yesterday I was so nervous to introduce myself in front of the class. Telling everyone what I like to do, what my interests are. The time I first saw him and thought that it was just a dream to ever get close to him.
Then the time came when we got to know each other and I’d get so thrilled by almost everything he’d say to me. Then after a while of all that, it was official that he was mine. The only thing that sucked at that time was that we had to hide everything we had shared together. And when finally they knew, it still didn’t make everything right. We had to fight for what we wanted. But at that time, I think I did most of the fighting. I thought it would really last no matter what. But I guess I was wrong .It didn’t. I told him that he needed to wait for me. Then I found out that he wasn’t as honest as I thought. At that time, moving on was the hardest thing for me to do. But I had to do that for my own good, even though it hurt. He’d moved on anyway. So I did as well. But there was always that place for him in my heart. It was just different without him. And I just can’t explain how it felt.
Almost everyone would tell me to let go because he wasn’t worth it. And they got me thinking that too.
Everyone thought I was fine. But I wasn’t! And only those who gave me the time of day knew that. I could be so thrilled with every guy who’d make me feel their love. But if everyone else just knew that deep inside my heart, the pieces weren’t patched up yet. I don’t regret anything that happened. But I guess if it could have been at least a little less painful, I’d want that.
But now? I just can’t believe that those are now memories, just things that happened in the past. Now, I know why it had to be so painful. And all the pain before is worth everything now. We got this far and I’m going to hold on tight to what we’ve worked for. I won’t allow anything to take my happiness away from me again.
One thing I always pray for though, is that I don’t have to go through all those crappy things again. It’s just all about trust now, is it?
Well now, I have nothing to hide anymore. We’re going to start this right this time, no more hiding. Hiding the truth didn’t do any good for either on of us. Besides love isn’t just sharing your life with each other but it’s most especially about honesty and trust.
Because without honesty and trust, love would be just a game. A game that would hurt hearts and change people in a way that shouldn’t be done. Love shouldn’t even be taken for granted. For me, it’s one of the greatest gifts God gave us. There is no life without love. And those who live without love, just aren’t living life at all.
Time flies by so fast. It seems like just yesterday I was so nervous to introduce myself in front of the class. Telling everyone what I like to do, what my interests are. The time I first saw him and thought that it was just a dream to ever get close to him.
Then the time came when we got to know each other and I’d get so thrilled by almost everything he’d say to me. Then after a while of all that, it was official that he was mine. The only thing that sucked at that time was that we had to hide everything we had shared together. And when finally they knew, it still didn’t make everything right. We had to fight for what we wanted. But at that time, I think I did most of the fighting. I thought it would really last no matter what. But I guess I was wrong .It didn’t. I told him that he needed to wait for me. Then I found out that he wasn’t as honest as I thought. At that time, moving on was the hardest thing for me to do. But I had to do that for my own good, even though it hurt. He’d moved on anyway. So I did as well. But there was always that place for him in my heart. It was just different without him. And I just can’t explain how it felt.
Almost everyone would tell me to let go because he wasn’t worth it. And they got me thinking that too.
Everyone thought I was fine. But I wasn’t! And only those who gave me the time of day knew that. I could be so thrilled with every guy who’d make me feel their love. But if everyone else just knew that deep inside my heart, the pieces weren’t patched up yet. I don’t regret anything that happened. But I guess if it could have been at least a little less painful, I’d want that.
But now? I just can’t believe that those are now memories, just things that happened in the past. Now, I know why it had to be so painful. And all the pain before is worth everything now. We got this far and I’m going to hold on tight to what we’ve worked for. I won’t allow anything to take my happiness away from me again.
One thing I always pray for though, is that I don’t have to go through all those crappy things again. It’s just all about trust now, is it?
Well now, I have nothing to hide anymore. We’re going to start this right this time, no more hiding. Hiding the truth didn’t do any good for either on of us. Besides love isn’t just sharing your life with each other but it’s most especially about honesty and trust.
Because without honesty and trust, love would be just a game. A game that would hurt hearts and change people in a way that shouldn’t be done. Love shouldn’t even be taken for granted. For me, it’s one of the greatest gifts God gave us. There is no life without love. And those who live without love, just aren’t living life at all.
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